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"A literary soul with personal triumph gives voice to all women who have been victimized. Her gospel resounds with reassurance that you are not alone!"
A contributing author of two anthologies:The Triumph of MySoul edited by Elissa Gabrielle and This Far by Faith with Vanessa Miller as editor, Linda Wattley brings "The Last Days of Victimization" to readers who have suffered mental and physical abuse. Her story and journey is a triumphant search for self and thus, a reawakening of the mind, body, spirit and soul for all readers in search of an inspirational read. Read the interview. Poignant and truth telling with powerful focus. This writer is going to the top!
Linda D. Wattley is a published writer who began her first work of art with poetry.The poem, “I Wish” appeared in the Poetry Gems of the American Poets Society.For over twelve years she had her own religious/philosophical column in the Frosted Illustrated Newspaper titled:The Best Will Show Themselves. In her weekly column, Wattley shared a unique voice revealing her understanding of the heart of God.Heading into her thirteenth year of writing, she realized God had imparted a message to her that she must share with the world.In the beginning, this message was founded on love and God’s desire that His people knew Him individually and wholeheartedly. Wattley established her spiritual foundation based on Mat 6:33: But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.With this in mind, she acquired knowledge pertaining to God and spiritual matters by reading over a thousand books and counting.Along with this personal search of knowledge, she attended the University of Akron studying courses in Psychology, Sociology and Writing.Her greatest accomplishment is her satisfaction of knowing she followed the Word of God.
Wattley has appeared as a contributed writer for the online magazines including:FaithWriters, The Wright Side of Me Productions, The Blessed Room and Cheers where she shares inspirational and thought provoking messages to readers.She is also a contributing author of upcoming anthologies:The Triumph of My Soul edited by Elissa Gabrielle and This Far by Faith with Vanessa Miller as editor.
Linda Wattley’s heartfelt desire is to use her gifts and talents to assist in the healing process of victims who have experienced all forms of abuse.She is presenting The Healing Trilogy:Something about an Angel, Deeper than Love and This Thing Called Love.This series is for those who have been abused and those who love them and would like to understand the soulful altering experience.She has also poured her heart into two self-help books that promises to bless the hearts and minds of readers who seek spiritual renewal and understanding of the heart and mind of God.LAST DAY OF VICTIMIZATION is a tool for every living soul facing the evils of the world as innocent victims.I KNOW MIXED SIGNAL SYNDROME reveals the truth about molestation and the secrets about it the world does not want us to know.
When Wattley is not writing she enjoys her family:Mother, Jacqueline M. Bushner, sons:Robert III and Marcus and her granddaughter, Jaelynn.
Born and residing in Akron, Ohio, shecontinues to follow the voice of God.Wattley loves imparting transforming truths during scheduled speaking engagements.She also has a message to share with the world revealing the truth about molestation and why it rules the world today.Listen in at:www.lindawattley.comMESSAGE TO THE WORLD.
Disilgold: What can you tell the Disilgold community about yourself that will explain why Disilgold has sought you for a perSOULnalized interview?
Linda Wattley: I have a message to share with the world. What I have to say can make this a better world to live in. My heartfelt desire is to reveal truths that set us free from a world determined to make us victims.
Disilgold: What is your latest book about?
Linda Wattley: "Last Day of Victimization" is about becoming more conscious of life and the world we live in. I am a surviver of many forms of abuse including cyber abuse which sent me soul-searching to understand exactly what is victimization. What I have discovered is a world set up as them vs us. Abel vs Cain spirit, Christ vs anti-Christ, predators vs prey, givers vs takers, etc. Once awaken, we can never be taken.
Disilgold: How long did it take you to complete your book?
Linda Wattley: It took me about a year to complete my book.
Disilgold: What were the happiest moments you have experienced while writing your latest book?
Linda Wattley: My most happiest times was when revelation knowledge was given to me that began my own healing process after experiencing abuse. I witnessed the building of a healing foundation that God wanted for His wounded children to have. Deliverance and spiritual restoration are locked in these words. There is no way I could have received the knowledge given in this book without God. That is exciting to know.
Disilgold: Describe your writing style?
Linda Wattley: My writing style is spontaneous through my searching my soul and much praying to understand God and life. Often times I am inspired to write when I least expect it but when messages come to me, I am eager to write it down and allow it to build into spiritual messages for the world. I call it soulful writing because usually my heart and personal experiences validate the thought processes that make up truths of significance. There is always a dose of healing for me. My understanding is to impart it to others that they may be healed as well.
Disilgold: How did you develop your writing style?
Linda Wattley: When I wrote my first book, I was inwardly forced to write. I later learned the force was only a calling to deliver a message for God. I relax, silence myself and follow the journey of words that eventually reveal beautiful and powerful nuggets of wisdom. It is a serious humbling experience that changed my life for better.
Disilgold: Do you have a favorite author of all time or someone who inspired you to achieve your goals as a writer?
Linda Wattley: I do not have a favorite author but I do have an angel, my mentor, Ann that encourages and strengthens me spiritually to follow God in all I do. She heard of my great losses in my attempt to do what God gave me and called me on the phone all the way from California and read the Bible to me, a complete stranger I was but she treated me like a sister in Christ. In closing she told me I had a book to write, it ended up being "Last Day of Victimization".
Disilgold: Where do you see yourself as a writer ten years from now?
Linda Wattley: In ten years I hope to be an author known for my desire to help others. I hope to be able to travel all around the world and share every message God has for me to share with the world.
Disilgold: What other projects are you working on?
Linda Wattley: I am working on actually two books right now, "I KNOW MIXED SIGNAL SYNDROME" and "SOUL MATE CRUCIFIXION".
Disilgold:When do you write and for how long?
Linda Wattley: I am a night person. Usually after 11:00 at night I desire to write. I can write anywhere from one to eight hours in one setting and at times even longer.
Disilgold:What three words best describe your writing style?
Linda Wattley: Spontaneous, sincere, spiritual.
Disilgold: Where can folks buy your latest book?
Linda Wattley: My book can be ordered at Anointed Word Media Group, LLC, Barnes & Noble and receive an autographed copy by e-mailing me at email@example.com .
Disilgold: What have been some of your toughest obstacles as a writer?
Linda Wattley: I entered the literary experience trusting people to do the right thing. I learned working with literary services on line at a distance can be risky business. Once you release your money, there are no guarantees you will get your just service. That caused me time and money and undesired delays. In the end, I acquired much knowledge and wisdom making it a blessing in disguise.
Disilgold: This section of our interview requires brief responses.
The "Get PerSOULnal" Interview
Disilgold: What time do you awake normally every morning
Linda Wattley: 6:30
Disilgold: What is your writing fuel in the morning?
Linda Wattley: I do not write in the morning unless I started the night before.
Disilgold: What early morning rituals have followed for many years?
Linda Wattley: Making my bed, thanking God for waking me up playing gospel music.
Disilgold: What are your favorite foods to snack on while writing?
Linda Wattley: Nuts, all kinds.
Disilgold: Do you watch television or listen to the radio when you're writing, and if so, what do you watch or listen too mostly?
Linda Wattley: I do not watch television and write. I can listen to gospel or any music with no words to it.
Disilgold: What is your favorite book of all time?
Linda Wattley: The Bible, I find it fascinating.
Disilgold: Do you have an exercise regimen to suggest for busy writers?
Linda Wattley: Have weights and exercise ropes near by, pick them up and flex and stretch your muscles while at the computer, stretch your legs out and squeeze the muscles every half hour and your tummy, hold breath and release.
Disilgold: What is your everyday outfit?
Linda Wattley: I love sweats and T-shirts.
Disilgold: What is your pet peeve?
Linda Wattley: People think you're stupid, dumb or naive because you are kind.
Disilgold: If you could inspire a child, what would you say?
Linda Wattley: I would tell a child that they are so special because there is no one else in the world like them.
Disilgold: What is your favorite motto?
Linda Wattley: The Truth Will Set You Free!
Disilgold: What is your favorite time to put your writing pen down and rest?
Linda Wattley: When you are writing just from your mind without your heart.
Disilgold: Have you traveled anywhere besides your hometown and if so, where?
Linda Wattley: California, I went there to begin my healing process. It was great!
Disilgold: Where is your dream vacation?
Linda Wattley: Hawaii
Disilgold: What do you particularly like about the literary world today?
Linda Wattley: The unity and support authors share with one another.
Disilgold: If you could leave one word of advice to people in general, what would it be?
Linda Wattley: Don't let the world take you from you no matter what happens.
In order for victimizing to continue, I had to become my own victimizer by holding onto the reality that I was indeed a victim.No longer a free person with a dream to bring to past, I knew there was something familiar about the way I handled this experience.Childhood memories of being molested had surfaced within me.The child in me did not judge because she was not fully developed in her mental faculties to determine right or wrong, normal or abnormal, flee or fight, etc.I made no decisions to what was best for me then.Now as an adult, I did not choose best because I made no constructive and logical evaluation. Instead, I split myself mentally, emotionally and heartedly into a victim and victimizer.
Accepting the choices and activities of others had become normal to me.You don’t judge or attack them, but instead you unconsciously make yourself available so they could do it again.I remember lying in the dark while being molested took place and not having to do anything but receive.And once it satisfied my victimizer I blacked out. I blacked out on this rape of my dream and let the victim take the blows.Each day of reality of seeing my losses, I would just take it like it was normal.There was no fighting or trying to stop her because I was in too deep.I wasn’t waking up totally from the blackouts. The psychological programming was embedded in my mind like a memory board that could not be erased.It seemed I was on autopilot when it came to receiving abuse and there was nothing I could do to stop it.
It was easy to take from me because I had lacked the ability to identify my adversary.Early in life, my first adversary was my father, someone who loved me and I loved so this was the foundation my soul had been developed upon.
There were times when the agony would begin to subside but I would inflict a thought reminding me of how big of a fool I was to let someone do this to me.Instead of being angry with my victimizer, I began to be angry with myself as people began to reveal to me the red flags that should have been noticed.Soon it became a vicious cycle as I worked at keeping recovery away.
Time had gone by and my natural tendency of searching knowledge and understanding began to surface.The first thing that came to my mind was the reality of the quiet victimizer within our minds.It drives us to speed to work, appointments and home.At times it causes heart attacks, high blood pressure and all other forms of health problems.Our society calls it stress.I call it unnecessary abuse just to survive.Indeed stressed out was me. The more I focused on my devastations the more hair fell out of my head. No one could have told me I was stressing.I had managed to find a way to begin to build and find an attorney to help me fight the battle of recovery.I was even writing again and appreciating my new life.I recall the pain that was pushing me from my back to my chest was gone.Stress for sure can kill you.
My shameful stress revealed I had left my own path of believing God was my provider and I shouldn’t worry.
Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment? Matthew 6:25
It was becoming obvious I was not the only decision maker in my life.My soul was made up of knowledge about God so there was no way I could self-destruct.There was a presence in my life allowing me to choose to be a victim and there was a part of me dealing with the victimizer. I quickly became fascinated as I saw what made me who I was.Though my childhood foundation was unstable, over the years my search for God and understanding of life reestablished my foundation of hope.This presence in my life surfaces always on time for me especially when I am weary.
Finally, I accepted my spiritual self again.The God I came to know used my entire archive of emotional, mental and spiritual memory to teach, cleanse and restore my identity.That was amazing to me. My soulful foundation had been reconstructed.
Bottom line, although I had accepted the lesser over the greater, I began to see victimizing to be much like locust devouring my life.God had something better for me and I was able to free myself from the residues of past victimizations.
And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpillar, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you. And ye shall eat in plenty, and be satisfied, and praise the name of the LORD your God, which hath dealt wondrously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed. Joel 2:25-26
Time to Choose
Attempting to rise above this dark phase of my life, I began to see the worse thing to do is to remain silent.The more silent I was the less power I had to rationalize and see the whole picture of my life.It only promised me fixation and vexation.
I shared the horrors of my experience with my son, Marcus and told him it happened again.I really trusted this person to do the right thing.His response was that I shouldn’t beat myself down because a person presents herself to be one way and acts another.He told me there was no way of knowing she would flip the script.I was totally taken back by his sincerity and respect towards me.
In sharing my experiences with others, I was amazed that everybody wasn’t portraying me as a victim again.In fact, they encouraged me to continue pursuing my dreams.To my delight, every single person who responded to my press release was a Christian and they were all in agreement about me getting to victory. My phone began to ring constantly from people everywhere believing God had a work for me to do and the devil was not going to stop it.Overwhelming streams of encouragement flowed in forcing me to choose to pull out of my dark abyss of abuse.Their concerns could not be in vain.The time was nearing for picking up my bed and walking in the light of truth.
At this point of my journey, memories of why I wanted to write books returned. It was because I had a message to give the world from God that lets abused people know we didn’t have to remain imprisoned by the clutches of abuse that seek to destroy our lives.
My dream began to return to me especially after someone told me:Your dreams always belong to you.Your heart, voice and mind are full of very Powerful Dreams so ready, Set, and GO because GOD is on your side, Its Already All right!!
Word s of healing continued to pour in and I began to feel as though God had sent angels to assist in healing me from my own sorrow.Up until this point, I had not realized how untrusting I had become towards mankind, even Christians, because my predator claimed to be a woman of God.
If you believe in a God who controls the big things, you have to believe in a God who controls the little things.It is we, of course, to whom things look “little” or “big.” --
It was amazing to experience love and compassion from my Christian brothers and sisters because some time back I questioned the validity of our presence in the world.
My past experience with preachers weren’t so great.As a church secretary, I was told by the pastor of the church to join him in his office.Once there, he offered to help me.Confused by his offer, I asked him to explain what he meant.That’s when this man of the cloth proceeded to tell me to use it or loose it and that he could clear the acne up from my face.At that point, I turned and walked out the office.
When his fellow ministers would visit the church, they would make comments like:“Before you were a child, now Rev has made you a woman.”They all assumed I had sexual relations with their fellow pastor and that was a turn off to me.Deep down, I always expected more from my Christian community than they delivered.In my crawl, I felt we had known Christ long enough to be the salt of the earth.This made me feel we were responsible for the condition the world was in.I seriously felt we were given power to not to be at the mercy of the world that we should have our own jobs, schools, banks, stores, land, etc.Instead, we have to face the world embarrassed by the corruption within our structure and yes, this angered me. However, it didn’t keep me from believing in God and Christ.This reality made me face the world like a lonely Christian who gave up on doctrine and finding a church home.
In reading the bible one day, it mentioned a remnant of God’s people.I felt to be one of the few that genuinely loved God and Christ. This made me realize I had to go it alone. But when Christians reached out to me, there was a strong and encompassing feeling of unity in my spirit that was just as certain as what was felt from the victimizing forces that took over my being. Someone took the time to send me a live recording of a prayer of strength and encouragement to rise above my circumstances.The spirit bearing witness of the spirit continued to multiply as each person prayed and advised me.It was like a vast reservoir of love flooded my mind, heart, spirit and body.I had no ideal this experience was coming into my life.The reality that I was not alone meant more to me than I ever imagined.
The encouragement hasn’t stopped; even today blessings of love are shared and witnessed in my life.This message came from a sister in Christ: I was listening to a Sermon this morning and the subject was about each person's life journey and that when our lives seem like its Shipwrecked; GOD will bring us ALL Together on the pieces of the shipwreck and each piece represents the trials we go through in life and those trials make us strong and capable of serving GOD more each and everyday because he brings us through it ALL and we shine through it ALL and remind ourselves and others to rely on GOD and be Strong and serve him wholeheartedly!
Chapter Six -Waking Up
We Are Here For One Another
As my resurrection continued to be apparent, I found bonding with my fellow Christians turned out to be something I needed my entire life.Not to say I did not have friends and family members who loved me, it was just so awesome to bond with my brothers and sisters in Christ.Something about knowing I was part of such a wonderful family and network touched my soul placing me in a state of accountability.Our presence in the world has been seriously challenged especially after corruption reached our foundation. Those corrupting the foundation will be dealt with by God but in the meantime we are to represent Christ in this world.
The remnant of God’s people exists and walks the earth daily needing one another more than ever due to misleading of some pastors.
Woe be unto the pastors that destroy and scatter the sheep of my pasture! saith the LORD. Therefore thus saith the LORD God of Israel against the pastors that feed my people; Ye have scattered my flock, and driven them away, and have not visited them: behold, I will visit upon you the evil of your doings, saith the LORD.And I will gather the remnant of my flock out of all countries whither I have driven them, and will bring them again to their folds; and they shall be fruitful and increase.And I will set up shepherds over them which shall feed them: and they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall they be lacking, saith the LORD. Jeremiah 23:1-4
The word remnant stayed in my mind until I searched the Bible for understanding.What it revealed to me was encouraging because it promises re-establishing of the Christian foundation that we may be fruitful and manifest our growing power here. It was wonderful to finally understand my Christian dilemma.
The reason Christians are strongly connecting in my spirit is because in my understanding of God at this time it is to be known Christianity was founded on the foundation of victimization.We are the souls along with the souls of others in the world that victimizers seek to devour.Christians have been on both ends of the experiences of victim and victimizers due to ignorance, hatred and most of all being in a deep sleep as we were beginning to grow in understanding of God.Our re-establishing of our foundation has been gradual but not defeated.
I have a Word:You can’t be taken once you’re awakened.
Calls and e-mails came from victims all over the world.They thanked me for sharing my experience.Many of them were alone in their private abyss just as I was in mine.We established a bond because spirit bears witness of the spirit.Our bond consisted of a weariness that only victimization can conjure up.For sure, I have learned it is so important to share your victimizing story with others.Being alone is not a good ideal.The repercussions are like when a doctor tells a victim of cancer if only we could have seen you sooner there may have been something we could have done.Holding onto abuse inside of us begins a death process of mind and body.Like cancer it eats away at us leaving us with less than ourselves.
If I had not talked about what happened to me, I would still be a victim of my past experiences.I would not have known my good willed brothers and sisters were out there and more importantly that they had always been there.
Don’t just let the balloon go; let the air out of it. Because victimizing takes on so many different ways and forms, we should never be alone in our experience.No matter what has happened to us be it harsh words or any catastrophes, we must talk about it until we don’t want to talk about it anymore.When the desire to not talk about it ends, so does the need to identify it as who we are ends as well.
I have a strong respect for organizations such as AA and NA because they established a foundation for liked victims of alcohol abuse to come together to share their struggle.They also made it known to heal or release the hold it had on its victims, they had to acknowledge a higher power.God had to enter their conscious for hope.
When people can relate to our suffering, it creates a bond and connects us to hope and we are given permission to thrive off the strengths of others who are emphatic to our realities.No matter who we talk to about it, everybody’s reaction is different.Sometimes people can make you wish you hadn’t said a word; while others will make you feel like you’re glad you did.We owe it to ourselves to find the right people to share it with because there is someone who can really relate to us and help us pull ourselves out of the growing abyss brought on by silence.
Wherefore comfort yourselves together, and edify one another, even as also ye do.
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"Victims are a threat to the survival of the world order of evil. Why else would we be attacked? We belong to God. I want all victims to understand, you are valuable to God that is why we are hunted and attack by evildoers. You have not done anything to be abused.LAST DAY OF VICTIMIZATION reveals the truth about weak people attempting to make us weak. Trust me, you are very powerful. The fact that you are not a victimizer reveals you do not belong to Satan. People want us to deal with the psychic and not the spirit. This is why victimization thrives. As a survivor of victimization, I must tell you we must know we are not of this world and in that reality, learn to live here as we prepare for home. "
- Author Linda Wattley
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